I’m a voice and a mind and a body

I have had my blog for close to 13 years. I passed in this time from my 40s to my 50s. The circumstances changed in this time: I moved from Mexico City to Berlin; I had to make new friends, look for a new job. So, the comparison between how life was in 2013 and how it is now, in 2026, is flawed.

But what might have been an even stronger change than place or job was time, and what it did to me. People tell me I look “exactly the same” as I did 15, 20 years ago, which obviously is not true. Honestly, no one does. Some age better than others, and I might age in a pretty decent way, but still, what definitely changed is how your environment sees you. And here comes in a fact that Gillian Anderson, actress and activist, presented really well in The Invisibility Plot Twist:

Apparently, women over 50 are disappearing, becoming invisible

You’re noticed, you’re needed, 

You’re whistled at

You’re even hit on

And then poof

A few years later

You don’t exist

You’re in the way

They wonder what the hell you are still doing here

It’s everywhere in our society

Some people, gentlemen

The youth of today

Sometimes forget that

We’re their mothers

Their sisters, friends, spouses

It doesn’t seem to shock anyone

Or for that matter concern anyone

That we have become invisible

I have noticed this “invisibility plot” myself. I do notice it all the time. Younger people just do not look at me; sometimes they look right through me. Even men my age might do that. Some women my age sometimes exchange glances in a solidary way, as if they want to express: you and me, we belong to the same sisterhood, the one of women over 50.

Obviously, I did not only change continents and my work place during the last 13 years. My children grew up from primary school students to adults. And my husband decided to end our marriage. So, two roles that were quite dominant over the last two decades – the one of mother, the one of wife – have experienced serious readjustments. I will always be a mother, but fortunately my sons navigate their lives quite well. The wife chapter is closed.

So, for a while, I have had more time to take on new roles: be a more active friend than I was maybe in the busy family years before, spend more time with my ageing parents, discover Berlin, learn and enjoy how to be a follower in dancing, work on my writing, etc. In these years, I have definitely gained perspective, wisdom and the desire to say “f*uck off” in several occasions and to several people. Like Anderson concludes in The Invisibility Plot Twist:

So why not be curious

Embrace it, admire it

Celebrate it, respect it

Even if you think I´m easy to

Dismiss as an angry

Menopausal feminist

The fact is I have never felt better

I feel like I have gained 

Not lost, gained

Gained perspective, confidence

Wisdom and definitely

If not more than ever

The desire to say f*ck off

I am not going to disappear

I’m a voice and a mind and a body

Stronger and more present

And more unfiltered than ever

Link to the video (photo is also from YouTube):

Viva Hidalgo! Viva México!

Today, Mexico celebrates the 205th anniversary of its independence. In the early hours of 16 September 1810, the Mexican Catholic priest Miguel Hidalgo encouraged a group of people to free themselves from Spanish colonial rule. Hidalgo, the most important of Mexico`s independence heroes, had the church bells ring and supposedly shouted “Death to bad government!” that night, in the town of Dolores in the state of Guanajuato. In the subsequent months, Hidalgo gathered an army of 90,000 mainly poor farm workers from indigenous or mestizo origin who fought against the ruling elite in the country – Spaniards and “criollos”, descendants from Spaniards born in the colonies.

Hidalgo was captured and executed not even a year after his famous “grito”, i.e. shout. The Mexican War of Independence lasted another ten years, until the country finally achieved its sovereignty in 1821. The question is, if it has also overcome bad government.

Mexico is a great country. It covers nearly 2 million square kilometers, more than five times the area of Germany, of beautiful coastlines, tropical forests, pristine mountain ranges, fertile plains and deserts with a unique biological, cultural and ethnic diversity. It brought corn, tomatoes and cocoa to the world; to name just a few of the goods. Its 120 million people are friendly and hard-working. Its economy ranks 15th on the global scale – thanks to the growing manufacturing industry, the sluggish oil and gas sector, tourism and the remittances of more than 12 million Mexicans living in the United States.

But nearly 200 years after Mexicans could again fully decide for themselves and choose a government they deemed appropriate, the country could be and should be in better shape. In 2014, 55 million Mexicans lived in poverty – that are even two million more than two years earlier. 28 million did not have enough to eat, 22 million suffered from a serious deprivation in basic education, the same number did not have proper access to health care. The ones that are doing better work overtime and spend every peso they can to send their children to private schools and attend private doctors – despite the fact that the government provides both for free. But a lot of people are just not content with the quality of public services.

Insecurity in the country is a definite issue. Impunity is widespread – according to the Financial Times, only 0.5 percent of crimes went punished in 2013. The papers conclusion after the disappearance of 43 students in Iguala last September: “It is remarkable Mexican criminality is not higher still.” And Mexico ranked even worse than in previous years in 2014 in Transparency International’s Corruption Perceptions Index – it came out as 103rd on a list of 175 countries.

Seven in ten Mexicans say that they are dissatisfied with the way things are going in their country, according to a latest poll by the Pew Research Center: Rising prices, crime, lack of employment opportunities and corrupt political leaders were the top concerns.

The Mexican President, state governors and city mayors honor Hidalgo’s contribution to the country by shouting out his name and the ones of several other independence heroes on the night of 15 September. President Enrique Peña Nieto did that yesterday at 11 pm from the balcony of the Presidential Palace in Mexico City. He has three years left of his six-year term – he, and any other elected official in the country, should use that time to continue the fight Hidalgo started and make bad government truly a feature of the past. The Mexican people deserve it.